"I don't feel like an activist": Monstrous Subjectivities and the Racial Elsewheres of Queer and Trans "Activism" in Toronto.

This article examines how western activist ideals, specifically the "perfect standard of the activist," impact the subjectivities of queer and trans people of colour (QTBIPOC) organizers in Toronto, Ontario. It argues that these ideals operate through exclusionary logics rooted in white supremacist and colonial frameworks, which prevent QTBIPOC from fully claiming the activist identity. Drawing on qualitative data, the article highlights how these organizers refuse, reject, or revise the activist label, cultivating what is termed "monstrous" subjectivities that exist outside dominant activist norms and enable alternative, embodied modes of resistance described as disaffected and quietly radical. This analysis situates QTBIPOC activism within a broader critique of racialized hierarchies in social movements and proposes a queer of colour praxis that embraces collective, intersectional, and mundane forms of resistance beyond conventional activist paradigms.